Simply Blessed...

Amazed! So excited.  Joy and peace overflowing.

Some days are definitely better than others when it comes to motivation to do stuff.  My productive in my walk with Jesus also falls into this.  There are days that are very unmotivated.  Yet by his grace he continues to finish the work that he has started (making me more like him). 

Since Brian has been working with the college group at FUMC it has been a little bit of a roller coaster of chaos and strain on us (seeing that we are invested in two different churches makes our lives less together).  Brian loves what he is doing and it is great experience for him (and I am grateful for both of those things).  Yet, in the midst of that I knew the part-time job would not be part-time and I knew things would change from the awesome time we had since he finished undergrad (p.s. that was not reality but God's grace on us for two months).  And so I pout.  I pout and grumble and complain about whatever it is that I do not like.  (yes, I know I am the only one who does this...ha).  And yet God says, "I have this Megan" (along with a lot of other things that I would rather not give away to him right now).

3 summers ago, (yes its been three summers!) I went to Branson, MO for a summer program that the Lord would use to change my life and is continuing to change my life.  Discipleship Focus is a summer program for college and 20 somethings to come and learn about a God who loves them and wants a relationship with him.  Will and Betty who wrote the book you go through and started the non profit did so for Young Life leaders to go and be refreshed and ready to be sent back to their ministries.  I would have to say having this right before I went on student staff my junior year of college was much needed (especially after that crazy sophomore year that I had).

How do these things come together? Brian doing college ministry and my summer (Brian just so happened to be there too) in Branson?  Brian is using the book that Will Wyatt wrote as the curriculum for small groups and I get to help him go through it and condense it for the purpose of small groups (because you really do need several times in a week to look, study and digest all that it encompasses).  So pretty much what I am doing is reading through the chapters and marking important things and highlighting stuff.  I then outline the chapter and give ideas about what small group should discuss.  I then give it to Brian and he takes it and emails to leaders of the small group (tweaking what he doesn't like and what he is going to use for his talk that he gives on wed nights).

SO the whole reason for this blog comes out of my lunch break today.  I went home and finished reading the chapter for next week and started outlining it.  Mind you when I think of my lunch time I like to have an escape (not totally sure why) through tv or reading a book.  So today I have been debating with my self all morning whether or not I will work on it at lunch today and thankfully by God's Grace I did.  The Lord definitely needed to speak some truth into my life again and remind me of some stuff.

Ministry is HIS alone! All ministry is his!

Yes, I knew this and learned this once before (3yrs ago) but today God reminded me.  He uses me in his ministry not because he needs me.  Oh no! He needs nothing.  The story of Saul (Paul) and his transformation and ministry is discussed in this chapter as well.  He went off and did stuff for the Lord in his own name and not the Lords.  Then the Lord sent him away for 10years to learn about the Lord and to grow in relationship with him.  For 10years.  And then he sent him out in His name for His ministry.

Being in Texas and doing ministry has been very different.  I feel like because I am not doing stuff that makes me feel the most alive that I am not apart of His ministry.  But this is the time in the desert (as I have said many times before) and I am learning to be in a relationship in the midst of all of it so that when its easy to do so and feel close to the Lord (when he is using the ministry he has chosen me to be used as His tool in then I will see and be even more blessed).

Because we are blessed when he allows us to be a part of what He is doing.  We are blessed.  I am still blessed by the ministry I got to be a part of in CO.  Thats right.  For a little bit, I think I forgot that it was a privilege and nothing on my own that allowed me to be a part of what happened in CO.  How good of a God do we have that he still lets me experience it, how gracious and how wonderful.

When I came, a few of them took off work and drove up to go to church and lunch with me after working the night before.

Hopeful.  That is where the Joy and peace that I am feeling come in at.  Haiti is 12 days away!  I am so excited that the Lord knew from my beginning that on Oct 22nd I would be landing in Haiti and spending the next 8 days there.  I am excited but so grateful that the Lord put me right back in my place and reminded me that it is a blessing, truly an honor to be let in on something He is doing.

So Lord,  thank you in advance.  You have made this daughters heart to serve and she is blessed and overjoyed to be able to go and to serve in your name and be a part of what you are already doing .