Living into today

So last week a friend of ours from Discipleship Focus (where we met 5 summers ago) posted a link to his latest blog entry on Facebook. Jon is really funny and usually has great stories to share and so Brian and I always love to hear about whats going on in his life. After reading his post (which happened to have a more serious tone this time) I felt compelled to reply. Read his post here.

My response to his post:
Hey Friend! Read your blog post. I have thoughts. I am not in your position but I get feeling like you are called to do one thing and then your living and doing this other thing and you do not feel fulfilled. I want to do relational outreach ministry. Instead, I work at a seminary office and sit on my butt in front of a screen all day. This is not a bad thing in and of itself. God is using this job so Brian can get tuition help while going to seminary. (So we do not accrue any more debt while we pay off student loans) But I am not doing what I love. What I feel like I am made to do. There is no YL where we live. So I try and start one. Slowest process of my life. And then when I finally jump through some hoops and have an information meeting, no one comes. And maybe I am trying to force it and this is just another season of no relational outreach ministry once again. Then what is it? I have been wrestling with this because I am not content. Then I realize its cause I am not connected to the vine of life. I think, no I know, (just takes me a while to admit it) that if I was connected to the vine as I should be then this funk of not being content and my picture of what life should look like and how my natural gifts and desires should be used and played out should fade away. I am learning to just fall back in love with Jesus. I think that is this season for me. To find my worth and contentment in him (as it always should have been) not in what I am doing or what I think I should be doing. We have to be connected and give all of ourselves to the Lord before we can live into who we were called to be and what we have been called to do. And we need to be sure we do not put or worth and happiness in those things but in the giver of those things. Good thing God is ultra patient and gracious. And good thing we can never fall away from him. Choose this day to have life. And keep choosing each day. For in Christ there is no fear and he will meet every desire of your heart. Blessings to you and your family. Keep wrestling. And keep laughing!

That is my prayer for each of you. Wherever life has you please remember that God is finishing the work he has started in you. And apart from him we can do nothing...