Attitude

I have been thinking about the idea of knowing God and sharing him with others. That is all we have been called to do. Sometimes we get bogged down in the day to day (and this is me for sure) and I lose that focus. Right now, as I said before I am trying to find my first love (Jesus) and fall in love with him all over again. The hardest part about this, for me, is breaking free from the world of 8-5 mondane life of work and then dinner, dishes, and cleaning.

I think life was meant to not be the same everyday. What? I know right this girl who loves the predictable wants some variety and dare I say, change. I have recently applied for a new position on campus (this is the second since January).  The supervisor for the first position put in a good word for me and I am one of 10 that applied.  We had to submit an "e-mail interview questionnaire" this morning and based on those 10 questions they will pick 4 candidates to interview. Did I mention the answers could only be 50 words long.  I am not so sure that they were able to get a full picture of me but I am hoping that my time on them will at least get me an interview. I would love to work in the Community Formation office on campus. The focus and mentality of those I am working with would be so different then in my current office. 

I am also trying to change my mindset and keep myself accountable to a renewed attitude. The work I do Monday through Friday 8-5pm makes a difference even if I do not see it. I am serving the Lord and my husband each day. Its hard when you feel like you are called to serve somewhere else or would prefer to serve in a different way. God is Lord and I have to trust him that this is exactly where I am supposed to be.  We are loving our community and this season in life (outside of work) and we know its just a season so we will take it! (even if I do not get the new job).

 Things that I am excited about:

-Leah is about to have baby Tyler any day, any hour or minute really. So FUN!

-Only 1 day of work left before 9 days off. I am excited to see some of our friends and family in Texas.

-The end of the semester for Brian! He has been a trooper and I am so proud but I am so ready for him to only have one class (in July) over the next three months.
 

"And where You are, Lord, I am free"

I started a small group a few weeks ago and it has been such a blessing to gather in community to share about where we are with the Lord and what he is doing in us. We started the group discussing what we would like to see during our time together.  We chose to share our stories to get to know each other better.  I know no greater way to break down walls.

As I talked through my story, which is part of such a bigger story, I am overwhelmed with how faithful and present God has been throughout my whole life. It was good to have to put words to where I feel like the Lord has me now. In this season of life I have started transitioning out of a period of the desert and waiting (although I am sure that this impatient child of God, that I am, will always be waiting for something) into a season of really falling in Love with Jesus again.  I cannot explain how much I need this and how I desire it above all other things. I am excited and blessed that my God and my Lord is oh so patient and gracious with me.  And above all else he desires a deep relationship with me. Here is to 10 years walking and sometimes being carried by the one and only true giver of life, Jesus. Thank you for finding and saving me.

This song has been on my heart the last few weeks:

Four Things

Brian and I did not go camping for our anniversary (sad times since it stormed all weekend) but we did get our first uninterrupted weekend of time together.  And that was very good for us because with work and school, time can get away from us.

On one of our walks over the weekend we talked about four things that we would love to continue to grow in during the next year of our marriage.

1. Seeking the Lord even more individually so that we can better come to him together
2. Continuing to communicate better with one another
3. Responding in Love
4. Committed to doing more things together (example: softball team, young adults group at church, etc)

These are a few top things that we have found the most beneficial in our first year of marriage and we know that they will continue to be key aspects that can bless and grow our marriage.

Ever so thankful for God's grace and presence in our marriage this last year.

Leah's Shower

I was able to host my friend Leah's shower at our house on April 20th. It was a lot of fun having everyone there and I know that it was a blessing to her family and friends to celebrate with her and Ethan as we await baby Tyler's arrival.

May :)

Happy First Day of May!

I have always loved May. It meant the end of school, my birthday, summer was coming  and so was swimming. This morning I have been in a pretty good mood and just joyful and thankful.  I also feel a little tired (this has to do with the medicine that I am taking for my arm).

I went to give blood at work yesterday. I passed my iron and out of the country hurdles. They couldn't find a vein they wanted to use/argued about which one. The finally decided and then stuck me. My blood was not coming out right and at this point I was in pain, hand numb, arm stiff. They took the needle out and said they could have hit a nerve. They sent me to the doctors. It looks like they did indeed hit a nerve and maybe a tendon or two. I now am taking a 6 day steroid pack.

Since taking the medicine it has been a lot better. I still do not have full motion of my right arm but I have more than I did yesterday and slowly but surely the swelling has started to go down. My arm was three times the size of my left one yesterday and it hurt even when I didn't move my arm. They said the steroids may keep me awake at night but thankfully last night that was not the case.   Glad that it is getting better but bummed that I do not get to go to my lunch work out for a week and I can't play softball on Thursday with our league.  I can cheer them on!

Things that I am excited about in may:
-Putting in the rest of the Garden!
-Brian finishing the semester
-My Birthday and trip to Texas for Richard and Melissa's Wedding
-It continuing to warm up and be great weather here for evening walks and star gazing (we can see so many from where we live)