What a week....

I am very glad it is Friday and even more excited about the fact that I have a 3 day weekend (which is of course still packed with things to do).

As January has begun a lot of planning and busyness has also begun.  Even though it is all exciting stuff it still is a lot and I am taking a little longer to get back into the routine of life.

I feel like there is a lot to say.

I have a lot to say.

I have a lot that has been on my plate.

Just dealing with the one year anniversary of my mom's death coming up and somewhat dreading that day is enough by itself.

So I have just been quiet.  Not wanting to deal with it and not really sure what God is doing in all of it.  The brokenness that you hoped was healed isn't gone just yet (I know, unrealistic hope) so I sit and count the days till then.  I relive each moment of last January waiting for the day that will forever shape me and be a bookmark in the story of my life to pop back up.

I think part of the sadness is that a whole year (1 full year) will have gone by in a little over two weeks from now.  And I dont know what to do with that.  She missed a whole year.  And this year, she wont be there for my wedding or Lauren's High School Graduation.  Its hard. And yet, I know there are so many more things she will miss.

Maybe I will start blogging more...I like it but I havent had much to say have not know how to put to words all that is happening lately.