Hello August

It has been an awesome start to the month of August.  I have had a great week.  I am so excited about my new job and how much of a change and blessing it is.

I get paid more............. ..........1.80/hour raise.
Not being Bored......................Sanity.
People are so much nicer..........Priceless.

Lets just say I don't dread work and I am excited about not being tired ever night when I get off work.

My heart has been heavy in the midst of all of this bliss. But the Lord is so Faithful.

I think it is a result of me trying to comprehend and understand what 6months means.  That is half of a year. My mom has been gone (which mind you replaced the word I would have used but it seems to be so much more morbid than I would like to come across).  Its crazy.  But as a I remember and walk back through the pain the Lord was so gracious and reminded me of all the thing he let her experience during the last year (8months) before she left.

1. She watched me graduate from College (education was always important) This was also the first time she met Brian (which I am so grateful that she was able to and then also when went for labor day 2010)
2. Seeing all of her kids on Mother's Day 2010.
3. Meeting (for the first time ever) some half-sisters that she never knew about (her birthday weekend when she was in Indiana where she grew up).
4. Having a White Christmas.  This is big because she loved when it snowed.  It was like she was a little kid and she was the one pushing us outside to play in the snow and build a snow man (this was of course when I was in middle school and she lived in northern AZ).  She sent me a picture of it and she was so excited that they woke up to snow.
5. Catching a Catfish less than 48hours before she died she text messaged her kids the picture of her with her catfish (which is on my cell phone still).  She had been fishing for about a year or something and it was her first catfish.  I will try and get the picture up because the joy on her face is so great.

Each of these things show grace that the Lord bestowed upon my mom.  I know some of the things seem random or trivial but she loved the little things and never had the easiest life but she could still be so joyful because of the smallest stuff.

As sweet memories as these may be they open a whole in my heart and remind me of the pain a little more than I would like.  But Thank You Lord for being so faithful and hearing the desires of our hearts and allowing for that last year to be one that brought great joy to her.  It is comforting.